Author Archives: Hellosailor

About Hellosailor

Writer, painter, nurse. Borderline, Bipolar, awesome.

Hello Sailor Plays with Fire

I find it difficult to find the time to write.  That doesn’t mean I don’t want to, it’s just that there is always something else in the way. Then magically, once a year or something, there is a moment where … Continue reading

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Doll and the Not-Kiss

Trying to figure another thing out. Last weekend one of my very close work-friends/subordinates text me ” Can I call you? I need to talk”. That crapped me up straight away.  1. I hate talking to anyone on the phone, … Continue reading

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Being Honest

Somehow I still remember the password for this thing. It’s been a while. I miss the writing, yet it seems there is never any time in this busy life to sit down and actually unravel the things in my brain. … Continue reading

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I don’t know what happened.  Writers block or something.  But it always felt wrong here anyway.  I never quite got into being Bonjour Marin.  I am Hello Sailor, and since what happened there, and my trust was broken, I never … Continue reading

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A Thousand Times Already

Fi’s birthday is coming up. Two years ago I went on a date with someone really special.  It got messed up because he couldn’t be honest.  Occasionally he pops into my brain and I miss what we had, even if … Continue reading

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Dislike

I hate that I want everyone to like me. My mind is so confusing I don’t think I can begin to explain this one, although I’m sure there are other people who feel the same way. I’m aware that personality … Continue reading

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Tea, Anyone?

***Trigger Warning*** I had a psychotherapy session yesterday.  I didn’t start off in the best of moods. The day before (Monday), I had an increasingly rare panic attack at work.  I say increasingly rare, because although I’m an anxious person, … Continue reading

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