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A Thousand Times Already

Fi’s birthday is coming up. Two years ago I went on a date with someone really special.  It got messed up because he couldn’t be honest.  Occasionally he pops into my brain and I miss what we had, even if … Continue reading

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Errors like straws upon the surface flow: Who would search for pearls must dive below

I’m sorry I suck so much at everything at the moment.  Yes, it matters. I miss every one of you, but I’m finding it difficult to juggle blogging and working and painting and being mental. In my head there is a … Continue reading

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What Brings Us Together; What Keeps Us Apart

Yesterday I wrote about my struggle with friendships in the real world, but there are people here that I feel safe with. Whether it is because each of you is far away, it somehow makes it easier.  I don’t know, the … Continue reading

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Clean Water

I’m feeling better after yesterdays outburst. I just needed to say some things.  Today the water feels cleaner. Love Sailor xox

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Hopeless Romantic

I have odd fantasies. Wait, that sounds really bad. I day-dream a lot. When I day-dream I get carried away.  It might be a borderline thing, I’m sure I read that somewhere, borderlines are more likely to fantasize about things … Continue reading

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Maggie – Sink or Swim

I know I’ve been away for way too long.  The only time of night I feel like writing at the moment is right before I go to bed, but I know what I’m like when I get on here, it … Continue reading

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Circles

I am chronically suicidal. I don’t know where I got that phase from.  It dawned on me yesterday how long it has been that I haven’t wanted to be alive anymore. I remember arguing with my parents, when I was … Continue reading

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