Tag Archives: emotional dysregulation

Hopeless Romantic

I have odd fantasies. Wait, that sounds really bad. I day-dream a lot. When I day-dream I get carried away.  It might be a borderline thing, I’m sure I read that somewhere, borderlines are more likely to fantasize about things … Continue reading

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Maggie – Sink or Swim

I know I’ve been away for way too long.  The only time of night I feel like writing at the moment is right before I go to bed, but I know what I’m like when I get on here, it … Continue reading

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Psychos and Superheroes

I’m stepping a toe back into blog land.  It is possible I’m over the blog block, or I could possibly go back into hiding after this. Never mind, I only write when I need to.  There’s no point in forcing … Continue reading

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Today

I’m not really sure why I’m finding it so difficult to write at the moment. I think it may be because I feel like I’m repeating myself. For example I feel like I write pages and pages about the fact … Continue reading

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Fish

There are different shades of crazy, nevermind fifty shades of grey. I was a big fish in a small pond, I thought I could do better, grow bigger and better in a larger pond. Now I’m just a small fish and … Continue reading

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Alien

I hate that I am so easily triggered by things. Sure, I can be mindful, and live in the moment, but why does my brain find these connections in the most obscure things?  Quick flashes of memories are not as … Continue reading

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Belonging

One of the last things C said to me was “stay in touch”. I didn’t.  It’s too hard, it’s always too hard. When I was in hospital friendships were made that I though were going to last forever.  I’d never … Continue reading

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Walking the Line

Life is a fragile balance. We walk the line between sanity and insanity. Two different worlds.  Each so different. Sometimes I balance well, like a beautiful tightrope walker elegantly dressed in a red tutu and flowers in my hair.  I balance precariously.  … Continue reading

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How To Survive National Singles Awareness Day

Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day aka “National Singles Awareness Day“. Bitter? Me? OK, maybe a little. This is the fourth Valentine’s Day I’ve been single. I don’t agree with the commercialism of Valentine’s Day, even if I was coupled up. I don’t get … Continue reading

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