Tag Archives: relationships

Belonging

One of the last things C said to me was “stay in touch”. I didn’t.  It’s too hard, it’s always too hard. When I was in hospital friendships were made that I though were going to last forever.  I’d never … Continue reading

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How To Survive National Singles Awareness Day

Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day aka “National Singles Awareness Day“. Bitter? Me? OK, maybe a little. This is the fourth Valentine’s Day I’ve been single. I don’t agree with the commercialism of Valentine’s Day, even if I was coupled up. I don’t get … Continue reading

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Circles

I am chronically suicidal. I don’t know where I got that phase from.  It dawned on me yesterday how long it has been that I haven’t wanted to be alive anymore. I remember arguing with my parents, when I was … Continue reading

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Sailor the Ray of Fucking Sunshine

July 17th 2012……… I’m in pain. I am a pain. There is an energy running through me. It’s not normal energy, its like the nervous pent-up energy. Last night, when we went to bed, Charlotte was angry. She’s been angry … Continue reading

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Never Regret Anything Because At One Time It Was Exactly What You Wanted

This was the 14th January 2012, just before I got taken to a&e for telling my therapist I wanted to kill myself and just before I got kicked out of therapy because she couldn’t deal with my problems…… I’m back. After … Continue reading

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It’ll Be OK

Originally posted on 5th September 2011 After yesterdays shredding episode I still hurt, or something. I couldn’t figure out what the something was, I still don’t know what it is. I felt like I couldn’t connect with people all day. … Continue reading

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