Tag Archives: self harm

Pain

** Trigger warning** Being held under the dirty water. Naked. Touching.  Waiting for my reaction. Stoic.  Switch off. Dirty things floating, including me. Hair tangled, stuck to my face. Green paint. Laying on the floor. Blood. My baby taken away … Continue reading

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Psychos and Superheroes

I’m stepping a toe back into blog land.  It is possible I’m over the blog block, or I could possibly go back into hiding after this. Never mind, I only write when I need to.  There’s no point in forcing … Continue reading

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All These Words

**Trigger warning** There are all these words that I can’t say.  All floating around in my head.  Sometimes I can just about make out snippets the rest of the time it’s just nonsense but because I don’t know the words I … Continue reading

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Blog for Mental Health 2013

This is my pledge for Blog for Mental Health 2013 after being pledged alongside the other Canvas authors (I’m still so fucking proud to say that.  I mean *I’m a Canvas Author*, how awesome is that.  I should get a T-shirt … Continue reading

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Dew

I am sure that I’m not designed for this world. I don’t feel well. Mentally.  Today was OK, but I just don’t feel right.  Thoughts niggling away. It’s wrong, it’s wrong, it’s all wrong and there’s nothing I can do to … Continue reading

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Sailor the Ray of Fucking Sunshine

July 17th 2012……… I’m in pain. I am a pain. There is an energy running through me. It’s not normal energy, its like the nervous pent-up energy. Last night, when we went to bed, Charlotte was angry. She’s been angry … Continue reading

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Never Regret Anything Because At One Time It Was Exactly What You Wanted

This was the 14th January 2012, just before I got taken to a&e for telling my therapist I wanted to kill myself and just before I got kicked out of therapy because she couldn’t deal with my problems…… I’m back. After … Continue reading

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