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A Thousand Times Already
Fi’s birthday is coming up. Two years ago I went on a date with someone really special. It got messed up because he couldn’t be honest. Occasionally he pops into my brain and I miss what we had, even if … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged anxiety, bees, birds, boats, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, DID, dogs, emotion, emotional dysregulation, friends, Hello Sailor, humans, life, love, Mental Health, neglect, ocean, people, quotes, relationships, sea, thoughts, what the fuck was I thinking
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Tea, Anyone?
***Trigger Warning*** I had a psychotherapy session yesterday. I didn’t start off in the best of moods. The day before (Monday), I had an increasingly rare panic attack at work. I say increasingly rare, because although I’m an anxious person, … Continue reading
Posted in Uncategorized
Tagged anger, anxiety, blogging, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, death, depression, ecards, emotion, emotional dysregulation, health care, Hello Sailor, Mental Illness, psychology, ptsd, relationships, tea, thoughts
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A Crazy Update
It’s been a while. It all looks a bit different. I thought it was about time I dipped my toe back in. I’m still me, and by that I mean I’m still crazy. There are still triggers and flashbacks, there … Continue reading
Posted in Art, Borderline, Mental Health
Tagged anxiety, art, awesome, blogging, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, cats, depression, DID, dogs, ecards, emotion, emotional dysregulation, Hello Sailor, internet dating, life, love, mental, Mental Health, Mental Illness, painting, people, psychology, ptsd, relationships, sailor, thoughts, veterinary
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In My Room
Let me take you to a place that I know. It’s a place where I can just be, a blank canvas where my mind rests, where I can reach out to you in the only way I know how. There … Continue reading
Posted in Art, Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged awesome, birds, blogging, BPD, distance, fingertips, floor, Hello Sailor, humans, imagination, life, love, Mental Health, neglect, people, relationships, room, thoughts
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Aftermath of the Aftermath
I’m good at being quiet, and I think that was always my problem. I know I’m Borderline, I know the sub-types have a code, but I can’t remember what mine is. It’s the “Quiet” variety, I know that much, because … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged anger, anxiety, babies, blogging, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, eating dissorders, emotion, emotional dysregulation, ex boyfriends, friends, health care, Hello Sailor, humans, life, love, mental, Mental Health, Mental Illness, neglect, paranoia, ptsd, rage, relationships, sailor, the universe is in my throat, thoughts, what the fuck was I thinking
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Shampoo
*Trigger warning* I am to write like there is no one listening. Let the words spill onto the pages. No mopping up of bad language or profanities or thoughts that will offend, because there are things that need to be said … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged anger, anxiety, Bipolar 2, blogging, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, DID, disgusting, eating disorders, emotion, emotional dysregulation, hate, health care, Hello Sailor, humans, life, love, medicine, mental, Mental Health, Mental Illness, neglect, NHS, ocd, people, ptsd, sailor, shallow, thoughts, what the fuck was I thinking
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Errors like straws upon the surface flow: Who would search for pearls must dive below
I’m sorry I suck so much at everything at the moment. Yes, it matters. I miss every one of you, but I’m finding it difficult to juggle blogging and working and painting and being mental. In my head there is a … Continue reading
Posted in Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged anger, anxiety, awesome, Bipolar 2, blogging, boats, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, bowling balls, BPD, brain, depression, DID, emotion, emotional dysregulation, failure, fins, friends, Hello Sailor, humans, hypnotoad, life, love, medicine, mental, Mental Health, Mental Illness, neglect, pearls, people, poetry, ptsd, relationships, sailor, tails, thoughts, toads, what the fuck was I thinking, wings
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What Brings Us Together; What Keeps Us Apart
Yesterday I wrote about my struggle with friendships in the real world, but there are people here that I feel safe with. Whether it is because each of you is far away, it somehow makes it easier. I don’t know, the … Continue reading
Posted in Art, Borderline, General Thoughts, Mental Health
Tagged anchors, anxiety, apart, art, awesome, birds, blogging, boats, boobies, Borderline, Borderline personality disorder, BPD, depression, emotion, emotional dysregulation, English, fins, friends, gouache, Hello Sailor, humans, internet dating, life, love, memaids, Mental Health, Mental Illness, naked, painting, pearls, people, relationships, roses, sailor, ships, symbolism, tails, tattoos, the universe is in my throat, thoughts, watercolour, what the fuck was I thinking
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Fairweather
I struggle with friendships. Maybe it’s me, or the BPD or the all or nothing thinking or the fact that sometimes I don’t feel human or even that I fear abandonment. I just struggle. Simple as that. But that isn’t the … Continue reading
Clean Water
I’m feeling better after yesterdays outburst. I just needed to say some things. Today the water feels cleaner. Love Sailor xox
Posted in Art, Borderline, General Thoughts
Tagged art, birds, blogging, boats, Borderline, BPD, depression, DID, emotional dysregulation, Hello Sailor, life, Mental Health, mermaids, painting, Pictures, sailor, watercolour
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Hello Sailor 